About the name
I thought I would explain my blog name today, since my url and social media handles differ from the title of my blog. Well, the simple explanation is that someone already took the url adventuresintrying. But as to why I wanted to name my blog Adventures in Trying...
Anyone reading this post who knows me personally already has an idea of what the nearly past two years were like for me. For anyone else who stumbles here, I'll keep it brief as I plan to elaborate on some events at a later date.
In December 2015 I moved from Tennessee to New York with the plan of attending graduate school. What was supposed to be a positive change and a step toward a career morphed into the most difficult period of my life. My spouse started working at a job that strained our relationship, we had very little money, we had debt, my anxiety hit a downward spiral, my cat of twelve years suddenly passed away, and I ended up deciding to leave my graduate program. Currently we live in the same location, with the hope of moving at the end of the year.
It breaks my heart to think that almost two years of my life went by in a blink because I felt so deeply unhappy. Thankfully, the good moments we experienced during this time were incredible and filled with joy. I cling on to those periods so life doesn't become one sad blur. Adopting my second cat Mina, traveling to the UK and seeing my best friend after five years, going to my first convention, and getting my second tattoo were all life changing experiences I never want to take for granted.
I'm in a better place right now. A good place? Maybe not, but a better place. I have a job working with animals. My relationship feels more solid than ever. I'm so proud of myself for having the strength to keep going every day, despite the hardships and despite my anxiety. (And despite some days spent being a sad blanket burrito on the couch.)
But I also have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. I'm 26, I have absolutely zero working experience related to my bachelor's degree, I haven't made art in a very long time, and I have no idea if I have career aspirations or where I'll find myself in a year. So, I'm just trying. I want to try new things. I want to try to accept failure. I want to try to accept that I don't need to have all the answers. It's gonna be a big, scary, wonderful adventure.
Kate
Anyone reading this post who knows me personally already has an idea of what the nearly past two years were like for me. For anyone else who stumbles here, I'll keep it brief as I plan to elaborate on some events at a later date.
In December 2015 I moved from Tennessee to New York with the plan of attending graduate school. What was supposed to be a positive change and a step toward a career morphed into the most difficult period of my life. My spouse started working at a job that strained our relationship, we had very little money, we had debt, my anxiety hit a downward spiral, my cat of twelve years suddenly passed away, and I ended up deciding to leave my graduate program. Currently we live in the same location, with the hope of moving at the end of the year.
It breaks my heart to think that almost two years of my life went by in a blink because I felt so deeply unhappy. Thankfully, the good moments we experienced during this time were incredible and filled with joy. I cling on to those periods so life doesn't become one sad blur. Adopting my second cat Mina, traveling to the UK and seeing my best friend after five years, going to my first convention, and getting my second tattoo were all life changing experiences I never want to take for granted.
I'm in a better place right now. A good place? Maybe not, but a better place. I have a job working with animals. My relationship feels more solid than ever. I'm so proud of myself for having the strength to keep going every day, despite the hardships and despite my anxiety. (And despite some days spent being a sad blanket burrito on the couch.)
But I also have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. I'm 26, I have absolutely zero working experience related to my bachelor's degree, I haven't made art in a very long time, and I have no idea if I have career aspirations or where I'll find myself in a year. So, I'm just trying. I want to try new things. I want to try to accept failure. I want to try to accept that I don't need to have all the answers. It's gonna be a big, scary, wonderful adventure.
Kate
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